I am not talking about potential new modellers, but those that I have known for the best part of 30 years, many of them who don't seem to have built anything at all, but are still club members. In my demonstrations, I was showing them how I do it.
And there are "stupid questions." No doubt about it. I am, continually asked what material I use for rigging my models by long-term members. I must have told them a thousand times that I only use wire, and have demonstrated how to do it at the meetings.
Yes, I am dismissive of young people as far as practical abilities are concerned. Not their fault, of course, that is the way it is now, so guilty as charged on that score!
You are wrong to say I am mu own worst enemy. I am not frustrated at all, I became indifferent long ago, and just follow my own path these days.
And that has recently included giving up model shipbuilding, and I am already feeling physically better for it. Not because I am sulking, or bitter and twisted or anything like that. I did tell you all a few days ago that I have just been diagnosed with an incurable lung disease (Bronchiectasis) that gives me bad coughing spells with dust and glue fumes. As I said before, I am NOT looking for sympathy, I am giving a solid reason! Neither am I battling with it – I am minimising the symptoms, by stopping using glue and wood dust.
I am now progressing well with my next book (nothing to do with model shipbuilding), and it has given me a new lease of life.
I feel that here in MB, I am just in the wrong place, as someone else has already said – this group is mainly about model boats – I specialised in model "ships!
I know full well that my character is flawed, but like everyone else, there is nothing that I can do about it , or even want to do to change it. It has served me well over the years. I never amounted to anything in real life, and I "dropped out" in late 1992 at the age of 48 aftyer 31 years at sea, and opted for less than the minimum wage, self employed, and left all the stress behind me. I have never been on benefits, and enjoy a quiet, simple life, and it is going to be even quieter and simpler from now on!
Bob